becoming me

What would you do if you knew you were going to die tomorrow??

Yes indeed I was late for class this morning. However, I wasn’t the only one. Well, that still doesn’t make me right. Anyway, the end of the holidays marks the beginning of classes which means the start of the busy-ness all over again. I’ll be so busy until Easter is over. Then again, after Easter there will be loads of assignments for me to complete. I can bear thinking. Anyway, remember I said I was really looking forward to going back to stay in college? Well, guess what? I’m not staying tonight. Terrible right? hehe. What to do. My mum is like pampering me. She kept persuading me to stay home tonight as both and roommates and Sze Sze are not staying tonight. Oh well, I gave in. =)

*takes a deep breath*

Work, work, work….. Here I come…..

Oh, on a positive note, I had a great time in class today. Although most of the time I was catching up with Grace talking about dresses and everything else in the world. =) I kinda enjoy learning grammar. Makes me improve myself. But I hate grammar tests. Because it’s really unpredictable. Anything could come out and they could be the hardest questions in the whole wide world (hmm, at least for me). But I’m kinda enjoying my lecturer’s style. She’s super scary yet she has a sense of humour although she always has that angry, i mean, serious face on. hehe…

Okay, I’m off to another meeting now. And there’s a meeting tomorrow morning. And another one in the evening. And another one at night…..

*the word ‘meeting’ just brings a negative feeling*

I just never learn. I’m always like that. How can I change?

I’m always doing work last minute. I don’t know why. Is it because my brain will work better that way?

I don’t know…Sigh….How now? It’s so late. I’ll prob be late for class tmr.

I need help. I need to learn and change. How now?

Tons of assignments waiting for me to finish.

I don’t know lah…..

This post may be a little late but nevertheless it still means a lot.

The story of IVAC (Inter-Varsity AIDS Conference) 07 from my point of view….

So the past week many of us worked very very hard. Sleepless nights, skipping classes, paperwork, paperwork and more paperwork, all the consequences of last minute work. However, the day arrived. On Friday the first day of IVAC, I was hoping that the three days would just fly by. I was tired and I lack the one thing I love the most: SLEEP. Many seniors helped us out for IVAC and we couldn’t have done it without them. And also my beloved bureau head too!

My dear bureau head: Que

Anyway, I slept on the way to UPM. We had our registration and all. It was madness…. There were so many people and it was raining. Good thing everyone got their stuff and their rooms. A bit of delay in schedule but we managed to catch up. Dinner time came and I had to prepare for my session. It was our mistake. We forgot to plan for the movie session. Thank God for Johnson and also the little guide book that came along with the movie. Anyway, we watched the movie and my head was blank because I didn’t have enough sleep and I wasn’t sure of how to run that session. Good thing Johnson and Lee Ping helped out so much…Love you guys man…. The session went quite well because the Group Facilitators did a great job in helping to conduct the discussions in their groups.

They told us….
…that as the Organising Committee (OC), we will not be able to join the talk sessions and everything. They told us that we have to be prepared to be working constantly because the work does not end. Hmm… at least they told us before hand. True enough we couldn’t join the sessions. There was just no time. Then it was the usual OC meeting at night followed by a Group Facilitators’ briefing and preparation for the next day. I really can’t remember why I had to sleep late. Hmm… Prob was planning stuff with Que.

The next day was the morning exercise which I gladly missed because I couldn’t wake up.

It was 8.15am when I woke up and the OC were supposed to have our opening ceremony rehearsal at 8.30am. I rushed to the hall (which wasn’t near the room) only to find that no one was there. Hmm…. I can’t be the only early person right? Well, after waiting for a while a few people came in. Then while they were rehearsing, I had to conduct a game for the participants. I took two groups with me and it went well…. Also with the help of Koon Yin from UPM.

Then came the opening ceremony. And we had our group picture too! The participants were awesome….They are such a nice bunch….

And there was Talent Night that night. It was meant for the participants to have some fun….And Zu Dian’s group won! The Grandeurs….

After the Talent Night was another OC meeting. Suddenly my bureau adviser (Hong Kai) told me that he’s putting me in charge of the Community Outing. (The Community Outing is a time where we take all the participants to different areas and create awareness of HIV/AIDS. The participants wear sandwich boards which contains info on HIV/AIDS and they also conduct a survey in that area). Anyway, I was like so not prepared to lead that programme and moreover there wasn’t much time left to prepare anything. In my college the IVAC OC had done this outing before but I didn’t go. So I was super blur and worried that I didn’t have what it takes to conduct that programme. It was my bureau’s fault that we didn’t not plan it earlier. Anyway, Hong Kai kept telling me that he wanted a junior to do it so that we could gain experience and so on. But I was still worried. Then he kept asking me to trust him but I just couldn’t. Haha… All this while he seemed to be some blur and playful senior. That night when we were planning, I got to see the super serious side of him. Especially when he got into a disagreement with another senior. Like whoa, I’ve never seen them so serious before. Wei Kin, another senior, also helped a lot especially for the team who went outside Times Square.

That night I only slept for 40 minutes. I was woken by some loud sound like a fire alarm sound. Johnson was outside putting the sound on to wake the participants up. It was so loud. Then Pat and Hui Yin went and knocked (violently) on the room doors to wake everyone up. It was 6am. There was a change of schedule. Instead of leaving at 8.30am, they told us we had to leave at 8am sharp. No delay whatsoever. So with all our might we woke the participants up. it was fun yet horrible. Can you imagine two girls banging and kicking your door and hearing that super loud sound at 6am in the morning??? I would probably be shock. But maybe they were just too sleepy to be shocked.

Later we found out that the bus will only come at 8.30am. What?? We susah-payah wake everyone up. Sigh…But anyway, it gave me more time to prepare them. The participants are such nice people.

Off we went to our respective destinations. I was honored to be the one announcing the different destinations and which group to go where. It was so nice to see their reactions. Some were so happy they got to go to Times Square and they were led by Mei Lee and Chan Keat. The next team was happy because they also got to go to Times Square but they were a little sad because it wasn’t inside but the outside of Times Square. Super funny lah their reactions. They were led by Zu Dian and Wei Kin. And the last team was led by me and Hong Kai. And when they found out they got KL Sentral, I think it was mixed feelings they had. Like happy and excited yet disappointed because they didn’t get a shopping mall. Anyway, we all did have lotsa fun.

Oh yeah, when we reached KL Sentral before we took the team in, I was standing outside the building and I was about to walk when suddenly some bird shitted. If I was one second earlier in taking my first step, the shit would have fallen on me. Yucks.

Hey, what did I say about no shopping??? I guess they just couldn’t control themselves. I had a hard time too. I was sitting right in front of McDs you know….hehe…

The KL Sentral group photo

Then we had a safe journey back to UPM. I really prayed that everything would go well and everyone will be safe. Thank God that nothing bad happened to any of us and everyone came back safe and sound. All the group facilitators were so awesome. They really did a great job in taking care of their members. and I couldn’t have been able to run the programme without the GF. And thanks to our beloved seniors like our IVAC director Gerald, Lee Ping, Wei Kin, Hui Yin, Pey Pey, Wai Khit, Ying Ying, Ying En, Poh Suan and everyone else too. Every single senior has helped us juniors so much and because of them we gained an invaluable experience that money cannot buy. I really appreciate all their effort. I’m sure my teammates really appreciate them too!

IVAC ended after the closing ceremony. Everyone went back to check out. Some took pictures. One thing I would do if I could turn back time is that I will get to know the participants better and also to keep in contact with them. I didn’t have time to get their contacts. Sigh…. After everything, that night, I went to Murni to makan with some seniors. So fun!

Oh I also really thank God that I was placed in 7th College. It’s the best college in the whole wide world. Although we don’t have good facilities like those in UPM but ‘home is where the heart is’ and throughout IVAC I could really feel that my heart is at 7th college. I love my college so much!

“Understanding Makes a Difference”

Did assignment the whole day at KLCC. hehe. So fun….. My lecturer asked us to go to this abstract art exhibition at KLCC. When we look at a particular painting, we are supposed to write whatever comes to our minds. So I went with Sze Sze yesterday. Then the security people guarding that place kept talking to us. How can we actually write what comes to our minds? There was this particular man who kept telling us that in the paintings were pictures of people and he kept describing the faces of the people in the painting. The eyes, nose etc. From that time onwards, I saw eyes in every painting in the gallery. Haha. I saw aliens in some too. But my lecturer told us that we are not supposed to see things like that. It’s supposed to be abstract. Oh well….

Then at night we planned to go to UKM to see Hoc Mun and celebrate his birthday. And that fella called at the last minute asking us not to come. The worst part was we actually told him since last year that we were gonna visit him in UKM on his bday. Ish….that fella……

Anyway, I still have a lot to work on for the writing assignment.

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Ooh…

I heard this song for the first time in a friend’s car. Ever since then I’ve been hearing it everywhere. At the IS where people lepak, at the dewan makan sometimes they play it on the piano and in the most unexpected place, the toilet. There was this girl who was singing the song out loud in the toilet. Hmmm….I was quite shock. Anyway, many people were singing it. Now it’s stuck in my head. It was stuck in my heard during my test last wed and I couldn’t get it out. Couldn’t even think properly for the answers. Sigh…. But anyway, it’s a nice song. =) Now I’m playing it like all the time on my comp.